I’ve been a consumer my whole life.
I scroll, I read, I watch, I learn. I have been doing this for as long as I can remember. Most of my YouTube history is people building things, explaining things, or thinking out loud. Webtoons. Long articles I bookmark and never finish. Anime that I claim is research.
I’ve absorbed an embarrassing amount of stuff. Almost none of it has ever come out the other side.
This is me trying to fix that.
I haven’t written anything creative since I was at liceo. That’s roughly eight years of nothing on the output side. Eight years of mostly reading other people’s words, thinking they sounded smarter than mine, and quietly closing the tab. The plan now is simpler: write things down, hit publish, move on. The bar is honesty, not brilliance.
A few things I want to write about, in no particular order:
Tech and AI. I work on AI systems for a living. Most of it isn’t the demo. Most of it is figuring out why something that worked yesterday is broken today, and why the model decided this is the day to behave weirdly. That’s the part I want to write about.
Personal. I grew up across three countries (Pakistan, Italy, England) and never fully felt at home in any of them. Languages, places, the strange feeling of being slightly outside everyone else’s reality. None of it adds up to a clean story, which is probably the point.
Philosophy meets tech. I keep circling questions about reasoning, consciousness, and whether the systems we are building actually think. No conclusions, just notes.
Whatever else. Cooking. Plants. Books I’m listening to. The mountains I miss. The occasional rant. This blog will probably wander, because I do.
I’m not great at writing. Not particularly good at speaking either. Doing it anyway.
Two rules for myself:
- No em dashes. AI loves them. I don’t.
- If I don’t believe what I’m writing, I delete it.
That’s it. First post. A marker in the ground so I have something to point back to.
If something I write here is useful, or honest, or makes you think for half a second longer than you would have otherwise, that’s a win. If not, I’ll keep going anyway. That seems to be how this works.
